Life update!!!

This season I’m attending CGA!

CGA is a discipleship school that’s designed to empower and equip people to lead in any setting. It teaches me how to be a leader as well as learn more about the Father and what it looks like to walk in leadership as a daughter in the kingdom. I’m about a month in and I’ve already learned so much!

I’ve learned more about my emotions, I’ve learned that they are powerful and beautiful. I cry in front of my class all the time. Sometimes it’s embarrassing or hard, other times it’s extremely liberating and brings freedom. I have to remind myself it’s not about me but its about what the father wants to do through me to further his kingdom. The father can use my physical emotions to show how things affect his heart. That is an amazing gift that I get to share.

I’ve also learned that most of my time on the Race I was learning how to hear the Lord’s voice and ways he speaks to me. I can understand him most when he gives me his feelings and affirms me within my community. Now that I understand how to hear the Lord I feel prepared to learn how to better lead my community and myself! 

In this season I feel that the Lord is teaching me how to be an introvert. For as long as I can remember I have been a professional best friend maker, conversation starter, and natural comedian. I love people, my ministry is people, my life has been based around all my relationships with people. Now the Lord is asking me to step back and take time to learn about and love myself first. It is terrifying. Some thoughts that go through my head are: What if I don’t like myself? What if I find out about a trauma I didn’t know I had? What if I change and then no one likes me? What if I can’t make friends? All these questions are so silly at first but then completely valid the more I contemplate them. I know I shouldn’t be scared because I’m growing into the woman the Lord created me to be but this is way easier said than done. I feel like I have to constantly be affirmed by people when I know I should be running to the Lord for affirmation. I find myself saying more often, “God I can’t do this by myself so I need your guidance to help me”. 

In this season, I am raising $5,950 to be in this discipleship program. I need lots of support from friends, family, or anyone wanting to partner with the Lord and how he is working in my life. I find it uncomfortable to fundraise because it’s essentially asking people for money. But it’s so much more than that, it’s telling the story of what the Lord is doing in my life. The blessings, the lessons, the hardships are all for the Lord and I will steward what he is teaching me to the best of my ability. If you feel lead to support me here are some ways you can do that: 

1. Donate! You can donate once or monthly depending on your preference. You can do this by clicking the “donate” button at the top of my blog site! You can also Donate through Venmo: @kaitlyn-mcintire 

2. Pray!! Prayer works and it is so powerful! Please continue to pray for me while I go through this season of life! Here are some things you can be praying for: being fully funded, job searches, and plans for the spring! 

Thank you for reading!! You are loved!!